yesterday, i must admit i felt really REALLY happy. being able to tell the person you actually like (and who rejected you point out)that you weren't over him was something i never thought i would be able to do, but i did it. being blunt WAS my mission for this week anyway

but back to reality, i know he can never allow it. he knows. i KNOW he knows. i actually commend him for being so amazingly awesome. i know it's happened to him before (being thought of as a rebound and such),and i guess he doesn't want that to happen again.

but for the record, i never though of him as a rebound. never would've. never for a thousand years.

i wouldn't go any further than this. this is actually the end. it's like yesterday's parting was somewhat the start of a journey to forget each other, more of like saying good bye than saying 'see you again sometime'. i'm not saying we're different, but we DO have our own lives. i belong to someone else, i'm waiting for some other person besides him. he knows it. he's being considerate, and i appreciate it.

i know this is the point where i have to let go of my summer memories, but as a last word...

thanks. you made me amazingly happy during the moments i felt down, during the times when i was feeling the worst. i really really appreciate everything you've done for me. you're a nice person. i hope you find someone who won't give you troubles like i do fall for her okay? you deserve to be happy too.

-shing

(ps. moods are not working for me so to make it clear, i am so not in agony i'm just... hmmm... at peace )